She can't understand anything anymore....

Why does it has to be this way? Why do we need to cry and to get hurt before she understands the sacrifices and other things that i'm doing to her? Why do she need to understand the wrong things?

She said that she is SENSITIVE but what's the catch? I only said that I want her to understand everything.... But she only understanded what's not true.... She even said some bad things that really hit me....

What's her problem? I can help her but she said "pusit ka e, ano naman magagawa mo?" I answered "oo pusit ako, pero iba ako sa mga ibang pusit dian, atleast ako mapagmahal!" and I already prooven it A LOT OF TIMES ALREADY!!!

But she still doesn't believe me.... And instead she trusted her instincts... Instinct na bulok....

But I dreamt something, there's a man who said this to me; "kaya ka niya pinapahirapan, dahil hindi ka niya mahal."

I know that.... But why 1.1 and 2.1? they didn't like/love me but they never tried to hurt me.... And they understand... "well because Venus is different from others, she don't know what to do..."

well.... I remembered what happen with the last line above... She apologized to me 'cuz she don't know what the hell is she doing to me.... "kung 'di mo na talaga alam ang mga pinaggagawa mo edi tigilin mo bago ka pa makasaktan ng iba, mostly ako!" she is confused.... Yet she's confusing me too....

I hope that I can really help her with that issue.... I know that she has a heart of pure kindness, but its just her outer self is preventing to wake it up.... AND i'm already doing EVERYTHING to wake her kind innerself up....

I love that girl so much that I really would give up my soul and my whole life to make her happy.... And I really hope that things will turn out fine.... I miss her and I want to talk to her again.... And clarify all things that should be clarified long ago.

I'll just pray to God and hope that everything will be alright.... And I hope that her mind is clear now.... Time will tell if she already realized all the things that i've done to her...

Thus i'll end this part of chapter with a quote;
"Love isn't all about showing love, but its about how you can serve for that person."

I Love You.... =((

<~Buu-chan~>{25}